Lonely

Today was a very gloomy day for me. I don't know why, I just felt like I was all alone in this huge world.

With my parents going back to Idaho and not seeing my wonderful husband, I just felt like I moved in the middle of no where with no one I knew.

It is very odd for me not to see my husband. We are very close, he is my best friend. Yesterday, today and tomorrow I work four to midnight and he works eight to four. I am not awake when he gets up and gets going and he is not awake when I get home.

Because we just moved here a little over a year ago and we have been working a lot, we haven't really met a lot of friends. Yes we have work aquantinances but it just isn't the same.

Today I tried something, just because I was curious. I was missing him so much, but I decided to wait to text him, because I am always the one that texts or calls first. I decided to wait to see how long it would take him to get ahold of me, seeing just how much he missed me too.

Well thinking that he would call on his lunch break or something, it really disapointed me. I didn't get a text from him until eight tonight. I asked him why, and I know he is busy, but I guess I just thought that he would be missing me just as much as I miss him.

I know my husband loves me with all of his heart, but I also know that I am the one that starts most of our conversations (when he isn't home) and I know I am the one that plans all of our 'us' mini vacations.

Is it too much to ask to have him be the one that thinks of stuff like that. It makes me think that he isn't as involved in this relationship as me. Maybe it is me just being a dramatic girl right now, especially because I am feeling lonely, but really I don't think it is too much to ask.

Well there is my rant for the night.